The days left at the girls' home are fewer and fewer. It is weird to actually be leaving here, but I know that it will be a refreshing experience to be at the baby home.
My days have really been looking up. I enjoy my time with the girls, and now that they are at school for most of the day, i find myself enjoying the PUC (college) girls as they are still on holidays. I feel really lonely when they aren't around, so it's good to know that the girls absence has had an effect on me. I really do miss them when they aren't here, so i know we have a relationship.
Like I said before I have been spending more time with Retna. The other night she dragged me into her house and was so excited. she handed me a sari blouse and sent me into her bathroom. She pulled out the most wonderful sari and made me put it on. I felt so beautiful! The girls started doing my hair, and added a yellow flower to the side. They were all 'oohing, and aahing' and creating lots of noise. Then one of the girls said,"We must do her make-up!" Memories from my bollywood days came creeping up, and i became afraid, very afraid. But then I thought, what the heck.. it will be fun.. right?
AND it was. My eyebrows were REALLY dark, and hilaroius. I wore a pink lipstick suited for a grandmother, some mascara and they attempted to put sparkles all over me.. there is a line people! haha. Retna decorated me with bangles, and chains and insisted on a photoshoot. We had a lot of fun taking pictures. Some with her, some with her daughter, and some alone. I know i'll miss these nights with Retna and her mother. They are woman of strength, a part of my heart. And somedays the only thing that pulled me through.
Otherwise the girls and I have been hanging around, reading books, sewing, cutting vegs, preparing for school... playing in the sand..and i've been doing some paperwork on their backrounds so i have been asking some personal questions like.. 'is your dad dead or alive?" um, awkward....
I just want to let you know how much I appreciate you all. A lesson I will continually learn here is how much I need support from home.Your prayers have cheered me up, knowing that you are all praying. I can feel the difference in my attitude since i've shared with you. I couldn't do this alone. In a small way I feel as if you are all here with me on my journey. You are my church and my family. My community.
Thank you for the prayers, the emails and everything. I know i say this every time, but keep them coming.
Lots of love-Cassandra
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