a little ray of hope

The last few days, as you know have been rough for me. But, i just had something to share with my readers.. yes, yes, you are my little readers.

I was walking, and not thinking about this whole situation, which believe me, doesn't happen often. and all of a sudden I got this feeling, and it said to me. "It's ok Cassandra. You're decision is ok. It's ok. Leaving may help you serve these girls better, you're not as miserable. It's ok. It's ok."

WOW. Yes, it's small. but i felt so comforted. I had a lot of turmoil in my body, and mind due to all of this. I didnt' want ot leave if i wasn't supposed to. but, i had made the choice and i feel good about it. I really do. I am not failing. I am choosing a different route, a vacation for my heart if you will. I just need to have a few moments away from this..and that's ok. it takes a big person to walk away sometimes. and, maybe i am a small person walking away.

thanks for the prayers. things are looking up. The girls are great and i wouldnt want anyone to think i don't love these girls or are not having a good time with them. the work with them is fun, and I get to see small accomplishments day to day. I just feel, finished here....

xo. Keep the emails coming. i need the encouragement somedays.. ok, ok. most days. haha