politics

So, i haven't updated in a while and there is a reason why..
there have been some weird issues at the home and i've been feeling, lost, confused, lonely and quite hurt. I am hoping this will be sorted out soon, today actually.. but let me tell you the story. of course this is biased cuz i am writing it. so remember there is another side.

So, i was invited to ooty from a trustee named paul. I was going to bangalore on the weekend so i said i couldn't leave that long. but then i decided, hey, i'll only get this opportunity once, so i should go to ooty, not go to bangalore and then leave the home june 10th to work at a baby home that i fell in love with the one day i was there. it seemed like the best of all worlds. Sam, teh guy that runs the place here, was ok with it.. but i called ron, the guy who owns the school and holy heck.. he was not ok with it.

To make a long story short he told me if i go to ooty i should pack my bags and not come back. aaaahk. that is not what i want at all, why all this trouble and drama over permission to leave on an invite? so i told him i wouldn't go to ooty. he said i was selfish and should re evaluate some of my faith and what not. I told him i was very hurt and felt very judged. I will be leaving on june 10th to Chennai to work in a baby home. If he choses to help me at the train station like orginally planned that is up to him. I don't know if he is or not.... but. ya. So.. i wasn't expecting this at all. It's weird though, cuz the guy who runs the place here didn't mind me going either.
So obviously there were some problems. All the other volunteers left and i was getting all the flack. Sam and i sat down, talked it out and i told him i needed a schedule. I need to know what i am doing when, and when is my free time. A lot of the day the kids just wander around with the little supplies they have.. we've used all the craft stuff! i just don't know what to do with them. and the english barrier doesn't help.

i am trying not to complain, it is just so weird ot me. i don't want to leave on a sour note, because i love the girls and the staff here. i really have been doing my best.. unless i am sick, and it was all a misunderstanding and miscommunication. i dunno.. man. today, i want to come home a bit.

please pray for this sticky situation. i know it's a time of high stress for Ron so I don't want to make it worse, but me leaving 9 days early apparently has. I just can't stay here, especially not with all this. June 10th i head to chennai. june 21st I come home!

love you all.
sorry to sound like such a downer.